Tags:
Fiction,
Literary,
Historical fiction,
Coming of Age,
Family Life,
Pregnancy,
Immigrants,
Saskatchewan,
tornado,
women in medicine,
Pioneer women,
Homestead (s) (ing),
Prairie settlement,
Harvest workers,
Renaissance women,
Prairie history,
Housekeeping,
typhoid,
Unwed mother,
Dollybird (of course),
Harvest train,
Irish Catholic Canadians,
Dryland farming
of sadness.
âWell.â I closed my eyes against the tears threatening. âI donât know. I thought you were different from the other girls, that you worked somewhere else. Maybe family money?â It sounded ridiculous.
âHmmph.â Annie snorted. âNot all of us are so lucky.â
I shrank back. âWait a minute. Iâve got nothing from home. Nothing.â
âYeah, but you know you can go back. When that baby is born...,â Annie gestured at my belly, âyou can go back to Mommy and Daddy and all the comforts of home.â
âI donât know that I want to.â
âWell, I donât have the choice.â Annieâs glare dared me to argue. I lowered my eyes.
âIt was the shock.â Shame filled my chest. Annie was the first person to react to me without judgment or dismissal, to give real comfort. Yet Iâd been only marginally aware my friend might have her own sad story, and she might need compassion in return. Iâd been frantically sorry for myself while Annieâs terrible reality moved on unnoticed and unacknowledged. I was not a good friend. Quietly, I went to the door and pulled her into the room.
âHow do you manage...â I blushed and hurried on. âWhat about diseases? And so many women die in childbirth. Itâs so dangerous for you.â
âWe have our ways,â Annie shrugged. âCondoms made of linen or animal gut. And thereâs a new thing called a womb veil. As though a veil is all it takes.â Her laugh was a short bark. âAnd I use a douche I make up in the kitchen.â
I gasped then, like a little girl. How had my father kept such basic things from me?
âLynn thought she was pregnant a few months back. We used pennyroyal to induce her.â She looked up then. âItâs okay, Moira. We all know what to do.â
âBut Annie, is there nothing else you can do? Nowhere to go?â
âNot that I know of.â
âBut youâre smart and beautiful.â
âWhat does that matter out here?â Annie was less angry, more resigned. âLook, Iâll be fine. I am what I am. Iâm not unhappy.â A weak smile flitted across her face. âItâs not bliss. But mostly they treat me well.â At my flinch, she repeated, âBut Iâm not unhappy.â
Hugging her, I whispered into her hair, âBut I wish you could be blissfully happy.â
âMaybe I choose not to be.â
âI donât know if itâs about choice.â
âSure it is. Like right now.â Annie grinned. âYouâre choosing to be my friend despite what you know.â
âYes.â
âBut you could choose differently and then youâd never know what I found.â She laughed mischievously. âI found a job for you.â
âOh my goodness.â I could hardly breathe. âWhere?â
âYou could be a dollybird.â
CHAPTER 11
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âWho knows, you might snag a husband along with the job.â The homestead officerâs name was Walter. He was dressed in a black suit and bow tie, a sheen worn into the knees of his pants, the collar of his white shirt slightly frayed and grey. My ears turned hot.
âSheâs not looking for a husband.â Annie came to my rescue.
âWell, with her condition and all, she might do worse.â Walter surveyed me with a calculating eye, as though I were a heifer he might be considering at the local fair.
âI just need a place to see me through,â I said sternly. âNothing else.â
âWhatever you say.â He bowed ceremoniously. âI only need your name and particulars and weâll do the paperwork. Wonât cost you a thing.â
âOh, Iâm sure itâll cost somebody,â Annie murmured behind me.
Walter forced a smile, looked out the dirty window of his small office and shuffled some papers on his desk. âIâve only got