Restart (The Revival Series) by Claire Thake

always all over him when I've seen them. Maybe, you know he's bored with me and she's something new.”
    The words caught in Leah's throat, and she tried her hardest to hold back the tears. The last thing she wanted to do was to start crying in public, especially in front of the kids.
    “Oh Lee, I really don’t know what to say, but all I can suggest is that you talk to him. Nothing will get solved if the pair of you don’t talk things through. It will just get worse.”
    Leah knew Carrie was right, but it wasn’t the fact of talking to Ryan, it was getting him pinned down to talk, and she could just imagine how the conversation would go, and she knew whatever she said, he would turn around to be her fault, and then she had the other complication of Greg to consider.
    “Caz, do you remember what life was like when we were at school? Did you see the reunion group on Facebook?”
    “I did, and I deleted it. That’s in the past, and I for one refuse to live in the past. I did that once and I refuse to become that person again. The only way we can go is forward.”
    Leah nodded and took in Carrie’s words. Carrie had lived a life of just her career and shut out all of her family and friends, apart from Leah, for 2 years after her first husband died in a freak accident, as she blamed herself. It wasn’t until her mother become poorly that she had no choice but to connect back with everyone that she finally changed.
    It was awful that they had lost Carrie’s mother Anne, but in a way, it helped Carrie heal from her past and find Daniel as well. She was truly happy now.
    “I downloaded the messaging app to be nosey. You didn’t miss much, it was just full of old names, all trying to outdo each other.”
    “I can imagine. That’s one of the reasons I deleted the invitation.”
    “Caz, do you remember Gregory Linton?”
    “Gregory, wow that’s a blast from the past, and how could I forget that name! You pined for him for months when he moved.”
    “I was just thinking lately how things have turned out, and how things would have been if say Greg had never moved.”
    “I honestly don’t think it would have made any difference Leah. You and Ryan may be hitting a rough patch but anyone who knows you can see a mile off that the two of you are perfect for each other. Greggory was a nice guy but I couldn’t see you with him long term.”
    “Really? Why would you say that?”
    “Leah, come on seriously, you and Gregory fancied the pants off of each other, but personality wise you weren’t compatible at all. He couldn’t read you and know what you were thinking and feeling; not like Ryan can.”
    Leah put her head down and took in Carrie’s words. Did she really misread her relationship with Greg so badly, or was she forgetting how things really had been between them?
    “In any case Lee, what made you think about Gregory? Was he in that group on facebook?”
    Leah decided not to lie to Carrie, although she wasn’t going to tell her about things with Greg, she didn’t need to lie about the small details.
    “Yeah, he was. Took me a while to figure out who it was mind you, and gave me a bit of a shock to begin with, after all, this time.”
    “I can imagine. Did you speak to him in the group?”
    “No, no, I didn’t write in there at all, I was just nosey and read what everyone was saying.”
    “Good. I personally don’t see what good would come from ever visiting the past like that. Work on your marriage Leah. Trust me you and Ryan have a good thing and something that needs saving, don’t throw it away for memories from the past.”
    Leah knew Carrie was right, but she also knew she now had strong feelings for Greg, and she wasn’t sure what she had with Ryan now, could even be saved, even for the sake of the kids anymore.
    The day continued in a blur of clothes and souvenir shops, and then a quick stop at the supermarket on the way back. The kids were exhausted and moaning, so Leah ran in by herself and left