specialty toy shop.
Rebecca and her father were so at ease with each other, no longer strangers, as theyâd been a week before, but fast friends. They seemed to share a comfortable, private rhythm, a sign that they were building a foundation for a relationship between just the two of them.
Hannah waited, expecting jealousy to squeeze inside her and to strangle all the magnanimous feelings sheâd been experiencing tonight. Todd was an interloper; before, Rebeccaâs heart had belonged to her mother alone.
To her surprise, Hannah felt only warmth. Her eyes were wet as she stared at the blur of bright colorsfrom games, toys and puzzles stacked high in the tiny shop. Strange how she didnât feel cramped herself in this new relationship. There seemed to be plenty of room for both Todd and her in Rebeccaâs heart.
Sheâd been naive to believe Rebecca didnât need a father in her life. Now she wanted that for her daughter. It had become intrinsically tied to all the hopes and dreams Hannah had for her child: for a strong relationship with God, for a good education, for love, adventure, dreams and joy.
âMommy?â
Hannah glanced down at the little love of her life, who was pulling on the hem of her parka to get her attention. A packaged collectorâs doll in a satiny, pink dress rested in her daughterâs arms.
âDo you think Santa would mind if I asked for just one doll this year?â
âSweetie, that isnât really the kind of doll that you would play with.â Or one her mother could afford. That familiar disappointment pulled at her spirit, a reminder of the way that tight budgets warred with Hannahâs need for independence in caring for her child.
âBut she opens and shuts her eyes and everything.â The child shifted the box to demonstrate before hugging the package to her chest.
âShe sure does, but this dollââ Hannah paused to read the name printed on the box ââMiss Gabrielle is the kind of toy you put up on your shelf to look pretty.â
âShe is pretty, Mommy. Look, her hairâs just like Tessaâs.â
Hannah glanced down at the dollâs collection ofdark curls, all tidily collected with a bright pink ribbon. That hair would look exactly like Tessaâs unruly mass of springy curls before they could finish Christmas breakfast.
âYou mean Andrew and Serenaâs little girl?â Todd asked as he came closer to study the doll.
âSheâs a big girl. Tessaâs nine.â
âOoh, I stand corrected.â Todd said seriously.
âBut the dollâ¦â Hannah began again.
âOkay, Mommy. Iâll put her back.â Rebecca returned the toy to the shelf with her sister pricey dolls but only after several hugs and a promise to visit. Even after Miss Gabrielle was standing tall next to her sisters, Rebecca stood looking up at her with longing.
Hannah peeked over at Todd, who appeared to be fighting back a smile and losing the battle. He crooked his index finger to call Hannah over to him. Her stance stiffened. He wasnât going to question her parenting, was he? She jumped in before he had the chance.
âLook, Todd, no child should ever have everything she wants. Even if I could afford it.â She glanced around, hoping Rebecca hadnât overheard, and lowered her voice. âIâve had to explain this to Dad and to my child-care provider, Mary, but I donât want everyone overindulging Rebecca. They need to understand that Iâm the parent.â
âRebecca has two parents now,â Todd pointed out softly.
Hannah blew out an exasperated sigh. âI know, butâ¦â She let the words trail off because even shedidnât know but what. Todd kept a solemn expression when he could have given her the condescending smile she deserved. She appreciated that.
âI know Iâm new at this parenting thing, but I just want to be a part of the team,