net
little flexible glass rockets
and the lifted mesh always empty
gauze and wire dripping sunlight
She is too tall to stand under
this house. It is a fantasy
And moving in from the bright outskirts
further under the shadowy floor
hearing a footstep creak above
her head brushing the rough timber
edging further bending her knees
creosote beams grazing her shoulder
the ground higher the roof lower
sand sifting on to her hair
She kneels in dark shallow water,
palms pressed upon shells and weed.
Immigrant
November ’63: eight months in London.
I pause on the low bridge to watch the pelicans:
they float swanlike, arching their white necks
over only slightly ruffled bundles of wings,
burying awkward beaks in the lake’s water.
I clench cold fists in my Marks and Spencer’s jacket
and secretly test my accent once again:
St James’s Park; St James’s Park; St James’s Park.
Settlers
First there is the hill wooden houses
warm branches close against the face
Bamboo was in it somewhere
or another tall reed and pines
Let it shift a little
settle into its own place
When we lived on the mountain
she said But it was not
a mountain nor they placed so high
nor where they came from a mountain
Manchester and then the slow seas
hatches battened a typhoon
so that all in the end became
mountains
Steps to the venture
vehicles luggage bits of paper
all their people fallen away
shrunken into framed wedding groups
One knows at the time it can’t be happening
Neighbours helped them build a house
what neighbours there were and to farm
she and the boy much alone
her husband away in the town working
clipping hair Her heart was weak
they said ninety years with a weak heart
and such grotesque accidents
burns wrenches caustic soda
conspired against she had to believe
The waterfall that was real
but she never mentioned the waterfall
After twelve years the slow reverse
from green wetness cattle weather
to somewhere at least a township
air lower than the mountain’s calmer
a house with an orchard peach and plum trees
tomato plants their bruised scented leaves
and a third life grandchildren
even the trip back to England at last
Then calmer still and closer in
suburbs retraction into a city
We took her a cake for her birthday
going together it was easier
Separately would have been kinder
and twice For the same stories
rain cold now on the southerly harbour
wondering she must have been why
alone in the house or whether alone
her son in Europe but someone
a man she thought in the locked room
where their things were stored her things
about her china the boxwood cabinet
photographs Them’s your Grandpa’s people
and the noises in the room a face
Hard to tell if she was frightened
Not simple no Much neglected
and much here omitted Footnotes
Alice and her children gone ahead
the black sheep brother the money
the whole slow long knotted tangle
And her fine straight profile too
her giggle Eee her dark eyes
Going Back
There were always the places I couldn’t spell, or couldn’t find on maps –
too small, but swollen in family legend:
famous for bush-fires, near-drownings, or just the standard pioneer
grimness – twenty cows to milk by hand
before breakfast, and then a five-mile walk to school.
(Do I exaggerate? Perhaps; but hardly at all.)
They were my father’s, mostly. One or two, until I was five,
rolled in and out of my own vision:
a wall with blackboards; a gate where I swung, the wind bleak in the