Trusting Fate by H. M. Waitrovich

it didn ’ t matter to me how much I was spending.
    So when the morning of our wedding came I made sure that I spent as much money as possible. I wanted Gabby to be spoiled with love so the amount of money that our wedding cost was chump change as far as I was concerned. She argued the whole time but I knew that she wanted the fairytale. Most woman did, and I was going to give it to her. I stood in the church that her parents were married in waiting for my bride to come down that aisle. My palms were sweating and my face was red it seemed, I was the most excited that I had ever been in my life. Finally they will both be mine forever. It was truly a great feeling and I over them moon with joy.
    We decided on a small guest list because I was not fond of most of my family and she only had a small family. The guest list with friends and family topped out at 75 people. I didn ’ t want a large group to draw attention, my company drew enough unwanted attention for me as it was.
    Taylor walked down the aisle with Theo on by her side. He held her hand while she wore a long silk like baby pink gown and he in a traditional black tux. My boy looked so handsome and so proud. I was proud to call him mine. He gave me a high five as he took his seat and kissed his grandma Thomas on the cheek. He was such a sweet boy and Gabby has done such a good job with him.
    When the music for “ here comes the bride ” started to play I grew even more nervous and excited at the same time. This is the start of the rest of my life …

 
    Gabby
     
     
    I had every intention on waking up this morning and getting married. I did get up and get to the salon and get my hair done with Tay and my mom, I also got my makeup done and was sitting in the waiting room in the church in my wedding dress, but I am not getting married today.
    It took me years to get any memories back of my what I like to refer to now as my “ dark days ” , but every so often I would remember something that Tay and I did or who I did … its awful and it makes me feel awful, but I was staring at myself in the mirror and my mind flashed back. To a night where I actually felt like I was there and it was happening at that moment. I remember everything from that night, his smile, his touch, his laugh, every embrace it was all coming back to me. I also remembered why I was not there when he woke up the next morning.
    I heard the organ playing the song that was my queue to meet my dad in the entry way and walk down the aisle but that was not happening. How can I marry this man when my mind finally let me remember what I obviously wanted to block out. I had left him sometime in the night after he fell asleep because I was still so drunk I had to take a cab. How could he do this to me? How could he get me pregnant and how could he not tell me the truth? Was it to trick me or make me fall in love with him? Whatever it was I was mad as hell and hurt to my very core.
    He probably never thought that I would find out.
    I tried to calm myself down so many times and make myself walk down that aisle and then just let him have it later on … but the longer I sat there and cried my bloody eyes out the more I realized that this love I have for him is built on a lie …
    Jace got me pregnant on purpose … because sitting on his nightstand that night after we had hooked up was a stack of paper work and it must have toppled to the ground during our little love fest because I excused myself to use the restroom and when I came out he was asleep, I noticed the papers so I bent down to pick them up and saw this file underneath it. The file was blank on the outside but curiosity killed the cat so I opened it up and it was all these legal documents in their talking him needing to have a child … it scared the crap out of me because the last thing I wanted to was to be pregnant.
    Don ’ t get me wrong I love Theo more than my own life but what if he did this on purpose? I did not read too much in the file