B00BUGFFGW EBOK by Megan Boyle

1.10.09
    my blood pressure rises during the period after sending a text message, before receiving a response
    being sick feels like you're wearing someone else's glasses
    today i ate a can of chicken soup, papaya, mango, theraflu
    there is a party tonight
    i want to stay in and bake cookies, i think
    maybe i will bake cookies for the party
    will smith is in 'men in black.' he is also in 'independence day.' people like to see will smith reacting to aliens. will smith is a visual manifestation of the suspension of disbelief it takes to imagine realistically interacting with aliens
    my cat jumped in the toilet
    the other day i hung out with harris for a long time
    we ate at an indian lunch buffet, got stoned at my apartment, looked at the internet and played with my cats. then we were less stoned. then we were just kind of quiet
    the sun was setting. we watched clouds from my couch and thought of shapes the clouds resembled. harris said one cloud looked like a dinosaur. i said 'i've never seen a dinosaur.' he laughed and said he loved me. i felt confused and tried not to react visibly
    i walked to the gym while harris watched msnbc in my apartment. it was cold outside and i felt like i was floating. i was still a little stoned, paranoid, and felt detached from my body so i stopped exercising and walked home. harris and i laid on my bed and tried to figure out a rubik's cube. i kept telling him how to do it. he said 'fine, you try' and gave it to me. i put it down
    he drove us to his parent's house. we talked with his mom and dad in the kitchen. his mom had made a lot of lasagna. his brother jake came home. jake had bought a lovebird, it liked to perch on his shoulder. we watched 'superbad' with jake and his mom. all of us laughed. after the movie jake realized his lovebird was missing and we couldn't find it. it was lost all night. we found it in the morning under someone's coat
    harris and i went outside to smoke the resin out of my bowl. i had never done that. he said it would feel good but might give me a headache. i said it tasted like pencil shavings
    inside we laid on separate couches and watched 'trekkies.' i started falling asleep near the end. harris said he didn't want to make me sleep on the couch, but if i slept in his bed with him, we'd have to 'behave ourselves'
    his bedroom was probably 55 degrees. we laid with his small dog separating us. the dog stayed between us all night. the dog was warm. i thought about babies sleeping with parents
    the next day he drove me to get my car from the mechanic's. we sat in his car, looking at my car. i said i wanted a coconut chocolate chip milkshake. he did too. we drove for 20 minutes in separate cars to the milkshake place
    we drank our milkshakes in his car and made fun of people outside. i felt sick but didn't want him to know. he wanted to see my car so we sat in it and i gave him a tour of the interior. our conversations felt easy and natural both days we saw each other. i laughed genuinely several times and think he did too. he said 'i'll call you next time i have a vacation,' which probably means it will be awhile. i felt sad. i tried to think of something funny to say about vacations
    fuck you sonic burger, for having ads on TV all the time but not existing anywhere near me
    papa john's replaced the words in 'everybody have fun tonight (wang chung tonight)' with 'celebration around the world.' stupid

1.13.09
    i want to own a warehouse that stores all the empty dolphin tanks and cigarette butts of the world
    i want to make eye contact with a stranger and say 'fuck' in a way that makes them feel like i've caught them doing something shameful
    i want my legs to be 50 feet long and i want to step on things and say 'oops' very sarcastically
    i want to interrupt a game of magic the gathering by busting through a wall on a motorcycle
    i want to delete everything from someone's computer except a giant microsoft paint picture of a dick that takes forever to load
    i want to spill