circus skills as art. âPerformers always look for just a bit more in themselves. Itâs a constant struggle for perfection. Even when a performance goes beautifully and you know it, you start thinking about the next time. How can I do it better or bigger or higher or faster?â
âNever satisfied?â Keane asked as they stepped out into the sunlight.
âIf we were, we wouldnât have much of a reason to come back and do it all over again.â
He nodded, but there was something absent in the gesture, as if his mind was elsewhere. âI have to leave this afternoon,â he said almost to himself.
âLeave?â Joâs heart skidded to a stop. Her distress was overwhelming and so unexpected that she was forced to take an extra moment to steady herself. âBack to Chicago?â
âHmm?â
Keane stopped, turning to face her. âOh, yes.â
âAnd the circus?â Jo asked, thoroughly ashamed that it had not been her first concern. She didnât want him to leave, she suddenly realized.
Keane frowned a moment, then continued to walk. âI see no purpose in disrupting this yearâs schedule.â His voice was brisk now and businesslike.
âThis yearâs?â Jo repeated cautiously.
Keane turned and looked at her. âI havenât decided its ultimate fate, but I wonât do anything until the end of the summer.â
âI see.â She let out a long breath. âSo we have a reprieve.â
âIn a manner of speaking,â Keane agreed.
Jo was silent for a moment but could not prevent herself from asking, âThen you wonâtâI mean, youâll be staying in Chicago now; you wonât be traveling with us?â
They negotiated their way around a puddle before Keane answered. âI donât feel I can make a judicious decision about the circus after so brief an exposure. Thereâs a complication in one of my cases that needs my personal attention, but I should be back in a week or two.â
Relief flooded through her. He would be back, a voice shouted in her ear. It shouldnât matter to you, another whispered. âWeâll be in South Carolina in a couple of weeks,â Jo said casually. They had reached her trailer, and she took the handle of her door before she turned to face him.
Itâs just that I want him to understand what this circus means,
she told herself as she looked up into his eyes.
Thatâs the only reason I want him to come back.
Knowing she was lying to herself made it difficult to keep her gaze steady.
Keane smiled, letting his eyes travel over her face. âYes, Duffyâs given me a route list. Iâll find you. Arenât you going to ask me in?â
âIn?â Jo repeated. âOh, no, I told you, I have to change, and . . .â He stepped forward as she talked. Something in his eyes told her a firm stand was necessary. She had seen a similar look in a lionâs eyes while he contemplated taking a dangerous liberty. âI simply donât have time right now. If I donât see you before you go, have a good trip.â She turned and opened the door. Aware of a movement, she turned back, but not before he had nudged her through the door and followed. As it closed at his back, Jo bristled with fury. She did not enjoy being out-maneuvered. âTell me, counselor, do you know anything about a law concerning breaking and entering?â
âDoesnât apply,â he returned smoothly. âThere was no lock involved.â He glanced around at the attractive simplicity of Joâs trailer. The colors were restful earth tones without frills. The beigeâ and brownâ flecked linoleum floor was spotlessly clean. It was the same basic floorplan as Frankâs trailer, but here there were softer touches. There were curtains rather than shades at the windows; large, comfortable pillows tossed onto a forest green sofa; a spray of fresh