side of the street. Behind me I could hear windows opening onto the balconies in the apartment block. I ignored it all and stayed close to my ambitious, achieving friend of more than twenty years whoâd gone out on many limbs for me and never once let me down. His hair was thinningslightly on top and his scalp showed through palely in the light above the gate; I knew Cy had had a horror of going bald. Wouldnât matter now.
The paramedics arrived and they moved me aside from the body gently, talked to me in calm voices and confirmed what I already knew. They knew their business. People had started to appear on the footpath and from the apartments. The ambulance men waved torches at them and held them back until the police showed up with flashing lights, staticky radio signals, guns on hips and that authority most citizens respect, especially in high-priced places like Kirribilli.
I must have given them Cyâs name and profession and address and done the same for myself but I was barely aware of what I was saying. I was thinking, with no particular logic or orderliness, of Cyâs wife and his kids and even of Miss Mudlark. Who could say who would miss and grieve over him the most? Kids recover; wives re-marry. I was light-on for friends and always had been. I was missing himâthe sporting challenges and bullshit that structured our relationshipâalready. I remembered that my ex-wife Cyn had liked Cy and she had detested almost everyone else I knew. That mattered. I felt the anger building inside me and a determination to find the person whoâd done this and make him pay.
A youngish plainclothes policeman was talking to me as more men turned up to whomthe death of Cyrus Sackville was a job to be processed and filedâa man from the Coronerâs office, presumably, scientific police types, a photographer. The detective had to grip my arm to get my attention. I realised then that I was barefooted and my feet were cold.
âMr Hardy. Mr Hardy! Are you all right? I need to see some ID.â
I jerked my thumb back over my shoulder. âItâs all up there in her flat.â
âHer?â
âMy client.â
âI thought you said Mr Sackville was your client?â
âDid I? Fuck. I donât know what Iâm saying.â
âHave you been drinking, sir?â
âYes. All my fucking adult life and a bit before.â For no reason I pointed across the road to where the rented Camry was parked. âThatâs my car.â
The detective made a gesture and I saw a uniformed man walk towards the Camry. They were bound to take it away for testing.
Two fucking cars gone in the space of one day,
I thought. A
record.
âWeâd better go up to this flat, Mr Hardy. You can get some more clothes on and we can talk.â
His face was a lean, pale smear, way off in the distance. I was experiencing the sort of perspective-altering vision you get as a kid in the classroom and grow out of. Heâd been with me for at least fifteen minutes and I felt as ifI was seeing him for the first time and not clearly. I shook my head, trying to pull myself together. âHave you got a cigarette? Iâm sorry, your name didnât register.â
âDetective Sergeant Craig Bolton. Iâm sorry, I donât smoke.â
âIt doesnât matter. Neither do I. Someone has to tell his wife.â
âHis wallet was in his pocket. Weâve got all the information we need. An officer will go there now.â
I was getting it all straightened out now, making the connections, but craziness still wasnât very far away. âYouâre going to want a statement, arenât you? And I shouldnât say anything without having my lawyer present. And he
was
my fucking lawyer! For more than twenty years. What do you say about that?â
I was a nearing fifty years of age mess and Bolton was a much younger diplomat, psychologist and total professional. He
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