reaches out and fingers the bracelet with a heart and football charm he got me for my birthday last year.
âSorry about Friday night,â he says. âMy old man was on my case about being a leader of the team my senior year and wearing the coveted
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like he did when he played.â
I get it. Carter McKnight was a legend in Chicago when he played. Heâs got super high expectations. Landon always wants to meet or exceed them. Up until I was voted captain, he had.
Coach Dieter made me realize I donât want to give up being captain. I want to lead and motivate my team. I like knowing my place on the team means more than just being on that roster.
âI never wanted to take anything away from you, Landon.â
He avoids looking at my eyes. âSure. Right. I know that, Ash.â
Thereâs an awkward silence again. I donât know what to say to fix this . . . fix us. I canât change what happened or turn back time any more than he can.
He touches my charm bracelet again. âDid I mess everything up between us?â
âNo.â I donât want another person in my life to leave me. At least if I have Landon, Iâm not alone. âBut . . . you made me feel awful Friday night. The whole Lily thing kind of freaked me out, and you havenât called or texted in days. I donât know what to think anymore.â
âJust forget about all that.â
He bends his head down to kiss me. For the moment, everything seems to be fixed. I want to believe him, but itâs hard. Since my mom left, I havenât fully trusted anyone. Even Landon.
We talk about practice. I ask if heâs started packing for our Texas trip at the end of the month. Weâve both been accepted toElite, a football training camp thatâs practically impossible to get into. Only top high school players in the country are admitted. The plan is to drive there and stay in posh hotels for free by redeeming the frequent traveler points Landonâs dad has racked up and said we could use.
âSo whatâs the deal with that Derek dude?â Landon asks. He looks over my shoulder. Derek is mowing the lawn while listening to music with his earbuds. I have no clue why he wants to fix our place up. Itâs not like my dad cares if the backyard looks nice. Dad mows the front of the house every couple of weeks, so everyone who passes can think that weâre doing just fine. The backyard represents us better.
âI have no idea. All I know is that weâve agreed to stay out of each otherâs way and Iâm pretending he doesnât exist.â Itâs not exactly true. Iâm trying to pretend he doesnât exist, but heâs not letting me do a good job of it.
Landon gestures to my house. âYour old man home?â
âI donât know. Probably not, since his car is gone.â He prefers to go to work, where he can drown himself in projects at the accounting firm he works at.
Landon pulls me close and whispers into my ear, âHow about you and me go up to your room right now? I could use a back rub.â
Now? I look back at Derek. âMaybe this isnât a good time.â
âCome on, Ash.â He takes my hand and leads me into the house. âYou always say we donât get enough private time. Letâs make use of it while weâve got it.â
In my room, Landon takes his shirt off and sprawls out on mybed. I sit beside him and start massaging his back, kneading his taut muscles.
âThat feels so damn good.â He moans as I rub his shoulders. âYou totally relax me, Ash.â
âWhy donât you relax me by rubbing my foot, which is sore from kicking the ball so many times today?â
âFeet gross me out,â he says. âThe only feet I touch are my own.â He turns to face me and slowly slips his hands under my shirt. He unhooks my bra, then rubs his thumbs over my nipples. âI can massage other parts of
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