The Ocean Between Us by Susan Wiggs

kind where you see yourself from behind—and you realize you’re turning into a dump truck. And I’m not flagellating myself. Although if it were a means of fat reduction, I suppose I’d give it a try.” She studied his face by the dying light of the evening. He had the square-jawed, all-American look of a career officer on his way up. The lean body of a warrior. And the kind of smile that made women pause in whatever they were doing and find some reason to sidle up for a closer look.
    “I don’t think you can understand this,” she said. “You still fit into the same size Levi’s you did twenty years ago.”
    He cupped the palm of his hand and skimmed it down her side, as though mapping the imperfect topography of her body. “I don’t understand how you can look in a mirror and not like what you see.”
    For the first time in their marriage, she flinched at his touch. “I’m not fishing for compliments. I swear I’m not.”
    “And I’m not doling out compliments. This is the truth. You’re the mother of my children, Gracie,” he said, bending down to kiss her. “You’re beautiful to me.”
    And just like that, she let her troubles dissolve. He had, in addition to the physique of a deity, a certain boyish sincerity and fortunate sense of timing that made him irresistible to her. She pressed herself against him, welcoming the growing heat ofintimacy. Her eyes drifted shut. She became absorbed in his embrace and in the dreamy promise created by his gently probing tongue. She knew they would make love tonight and that it would be wonderful. It was one of the things she could depend on in her marriage.
    “Better?” he whispered.
    She nodded, because it was easier than trying to make him understand.
    He kissed the top of her head and stepped back.
    “You always do that,” she said.
    “Do what?”
    “You’re always the first to let go in an embrace.” He looked completely baffled, so she went on. “The first to leave the bed after we make love.”
    He smiled. “Let’s go work on that. I had no idea you had a problem with this, Grace. I’ll stay as long as you like.”
    He reached for her, but she moved away. “I don’t have a problem,” she said, wondering how she could possibly make him understand. It wasn’t something obvious, but an aspect of their relationship that, over the years, had slowly and inexorably crept into her awareness. He wasn’t rude about it. He probably didn’t even realize he did it. He was a busy man with important duties.
    “It’s just that sometimes I feel like I’m one of the things on your mental list of things to do: tell the wife to get the silly fat notion out of her head, give the kids a pep talk before thrusting them into yet another new school, take command of a carrier air wing, make the world safe for democracy—”
    “Jesus, Grace, what’s got you so cynical all of a sudden?”
    “It’s not all of a sudden.” She studied his face, that all-American handsome face, and saw genuine confusion in his eyes. He was the sort of man who fixed things—but if he couldn’t see it, he couldn’t fix it. “Never mind. I’m just stressed out. Want to rent a movie?”
    “I’ve got a better idea.” He put some music on the CD player, soft, fluttery jazz by Authentic Rhinestone. Then he slipped hisarms around her, holding her so close that she disappeared, and drew her into a sexy dance.
    “Yeah?” She shut her eyes as desire simmered through her. Even after so many years, he could still make her foolish with wanting him.
    “Yeah.” He pressed his thighs to hers. Steve was a fine dancer. He’d been advised to learn at officer training school. He was good at anything and everything that would help him advance his career, she thought, and then felt disloyal. He was a good husband and father, two things the Navy didn’t require of him.
    They danced all the way to the bedroom. As Grace drew the curtains shut, he came up behind her and slipped his hands along