treated me differently than usual, either me or our child, when we arrived, thatâs just the crowning touch to your contemptible audacity. She may not have kissed the little one, but that was for safetyâs sake. Recently the theory has been advanced that itâs not the trachea but the lungs, and you can never tell in that case . . . although itâs yet to be proven, that it is the lungs, and you, with your âsheâs dying, dear sir,â youâre an ass!â
Here Mr. Klöterjahn tried to bring his breathing under control. He had worked himself into a rage, repeatedly stabbing the air with his right index finger and punching most violently at the manuscript in his left hand. A terrible redness of face had spread between his blond English-style whiskers, and swollen veins ran across his protruding forehead like angry lightning bolts.
âYou hate me,â he went on, âand would despise me if I werenât the stronger of us . . . Yes, I am that, damn it all. Iâve got heart, heart in the right place, while yours is no doubt in your pants, and I would wipe the floor with you and your âimagination and words,â you treacherous imbecile, if it werenât forbidden by law. But that doesnât mean, dear fellow, that I am simply going to swallow your insults lying down, and when I show my lawyerback home that part about my âvulgar name,â weâll see if you know whatâs hit you. I have a good name, sir, and Iâve earned it. I leave you to ask yourself whether anyone would give you a plugged nickel for yours, you rotten little interloper! Legal means are the only recourse against you! Youâre a menace to society! You cloud peopleâs minds! . . . Though donât imagine that youâve succeeded this time, you insidious upstart! Iâm not going to let myself be pushed aside by someone like you. Iâve got heart . . .â
Mr. Klöterjahn had now really lost control of his temper. He was shouting, saying repeatedly that he had heart . . .
â âThey were singing.â Period. They werenât singing at all! They were knitting! Whatâs more, they were talking, as far I could tell, about a recipe for potato pancakes, and if I show my father-in-law what you write about âdeclineâ and âdissolution,â heâll lodge his own complaint against you, you can bank on that! . . . âDid you see the scene, did you see it?â Of course I saw it, but I fail to understand why I should have held my breath and run away. I donât just steal a glance when I meet women. I look them in the face, and if I like them and they want me, I take them for my own. Iâve got h . . .â
Someone knockedâknocked nine or ten times in very rapid succession on the front door, raising an urgent, frightened little commotion that cut off Mr. Klöterjahnâs tirade. A voice, completely beside itself, stumbling with panic, said in great haste:
âMr. Klöterjahn, Mr. Klöterjahn, oh, is Mr. Klöterjahn there?â
âDonât come in,â said Mr. Klöterjahn brusquely . . . âWhat is it? Iâm busy here.â
âMr. Klöterjahn,â said the trembling, faltering voice. âYou must come . . . the doctors are there too . . . oh itâs so terribly sad . . .â
He reached the door in a single step and tore it open. Mrs. Spatz, the magistrateâs wife, was standing outside. She held her handkerchief to her mouth, and two sets of large, elongated tears rolled down into it.
âMr. Klöterjahn,â she blurted out, â. . . itâs so terribly sad . . . She coughed up so much blood, it was terrible . . . she lay there very still in her bed and hummed some music, and then it came, dear God, such an incredible amount . . .â
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